Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Okay...Okay...I hear ya...

My post today came out of left field...I know. I guess, I owe you an explanation.

The Girl Interrupted post was a true story about a much younger and much stupider me!

I was dating this GINORMOUS ASSHOLE...I say that both figuratively and literally...he was 6'4" and 250 pounds!!! I dated him in high school, followed him to college and he nearly beat the shit out of me! One bruised neck and ego, two police reports, and three months later...the dude was outta my life forever.

I said out of my life...not out of my head. I still have nightmares about this coward. I have a recurring dream that I married the fuck-face and I realize, all of a sudden, that I've been with him all along. I'm running and he's chasing me...I'm desperately trying to escape him...hiding, fighting, and begging people for help. I always wake up just before he catches me in a cold sweat, heart racing and tears rolling down my cheeks.

I try to tell myself that I'm a big badass and that shit doesn't get to me...but, of course, it does. Despite my attempts at convincing The One that I am a Goddess...I am only human! Writing the stories of your life is supposed to help you deal with things and gain a new perspective. If it works and the "lambs" are silenced...I'll let you know!!!

So, there you have it. I'll post a warning next time before I take a stroll down the "dark side." No worries...tomorrow we'll be back to our regularly scheduled blog. Talking about penis' in girls husband's drinking problem...and my fat ass!!!

Ya'll are kind...thanks for your concern!!!


j-may said...

i knew it was true and i knew who you were talking about but i had never heard that story!

glad you got out before it was too late! i hate you still have nightmares about it!

the word verification below is "prick"!

Kameron said...

I hope writing about it and talking helps. It is horrible that those kind of people exist. I'm glad you found The One though!

heidi said...

Man, that last post was powerful! I'm glad you got away from him.

Kristy said...

I don't know if I knew it was that bad - I'm a little angry now. What a creep. Glad you found Jake!

Melani said...

I feel ya!!!! To bad that young girls are so stubborn and don't listen to one another. Thank goodness it is in the past the so distant past. :)